On Saturday I did nothing. Not nothing as in, I did the washing and cleaned the house and called old friends and made casseroles for my neighbours kind of nothing, I mean actually nothing. On Saturday I woke up at 9 am and did not get out of bed until 11am. From here I headed straight to the beach. No shower, no breakfast just pulled on some clothes and left. By 12 I was drinking coffee, lying in the sun reading Gone Girl and walking with my feet in the water. At 3pm I was hot and a little pink from the sun so I headed home to sleep off the day on the couch watching movies.
Sounds like the prefect day? It wasn’t.
I actually felt terrible the whole time. I felt like I had wasted my day. I had thought that I needed some time to relax and move slowly, instead I was just panicked more because relaxing felt selfish. Apparently doing nothing makes me feel really guilty.
I hear time and time again that ITP and autoimmune disorders are stress related. I have read that autoimmune disorders and diseases are linked to inflammation, stress and lifestyle. I keep being told that Meditation and Relaxation is such a great treatment for ITP. The PDSA website claims that meditation and relaxation are the most popular alternative treatment for people with ITP. But I can’t do it!! I just can’t seem to do it at all!