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If you are like me, then you have probably subscribed to a number of ITP blogs and websites; you may have even set a google alert to inform you of the latest ITP research and news. Maybe every now and again you do a random google search to see if there is anything new to read. Perhaps that is how you found this article? If you’re a parent or caregiver, you are probably finding yourself a tad obsessed, trying to keep up with everything that is going on with ITP. The more I read about ITP, the more I am sent round in circles; the more I search and scramble for answers, the more I have to read.
This morning I had a thought – I can’t read it all.
Today, with five different web tabs open, I stopped. I stopped researching, I stopped making lists of things I needed to read and I turned off my Google Alert. I can’t read it all, and even if I did, I wouldn’t know any more than I do now because the information is changing so rapidly. I can’t keep up. Every few days there is another newsletter in my inbox from PDSA, from Google, from Support Groups around the world, boasting the latest news – the latest research, latest everything! I am probably making the whole thing worse, by giving you one more thing about ITP to read. Sorry.
It’s not in my best interests for me to say this, but I have to tell you – Step away from the internet. You don’t have to read it all. I am giving you permission to stop reading. Stop reading about all the research and all the news and all the crazy; stop researching online and stop trying to translate medical journals into something you can understand.
Statistical analysis is never 100 percent. There are too many factors to control in any kind of human study – Worry is one of them. I am giving you permission to enjoy yourself and your strange little body that is confused and trying to do it’s best.
It is funny when you think about it – Having ITP means our body loves us so much, it is going out of it’s way to get rid of every cell it thinks is dangerous. Your immune system has got your back! – Your immune system is trying to protect you. So what if it’s misguided and got the wrong idea? So what if it’s killing all the wrong cells? Take a moment to thank your immune system for doing what it thinks is right. It’s the thought that counts, isn’t it?
Stop reading about the tiny details, the micro analysis, the numbers, the statistics and the results. I am telling you to close down this article, turn off the internet and stop looking for all the answers. Step away from the internet. Stop trying to read a thousand books on something that is probably exacerbated by stress and anxiety.
Today, I am going to embrace it. (And if it wasn’t so spooky cold outside, I would go for a long walk. Instead, I am going down stairs to check on the fire.)
Oh and you are not allow to read any of those articles down there